The Revelation Tour Europe started in November with big arena shows in France, Switzerland and Italy and it will continue after the January break both in France and Italy (and also in Luxembourg and Netherlands but not sure if the venues there are big enough for the full stage or if those will be more like the earlier Tiny Tour shows in the UK and Spain).

Every Revelation show begins with a clip of Tiny Love and a small prologue introducing first (images of) Mika’s parents and then himself. He appears on the rainbow stage and starts with Ice Cream and during the show performs his biggest classics and several songs from the new album and the vibe is really, really personal. The band is on the sides and it’s all about him on stage and that’s obvious to everyone but to fully understand how personal it all is it’s important to understand how personal My Name Is Michael Holbrook and songs like Tiny Love are.

Tiny Love is such a brilliant song with many layers. Even now, several months after it was released, I can still listen to it and hear a beautiful love song that can be anything I want it to be that day. It’s one particular sentence and the video supporting the song that makes me understand how personal Tiny Love really is. I watch the video and suddenly it totally hits me, Tiny Love and this small film related to it are the most personal, most intimate, most revealing pieces Mika has ever shared of himself.

The film is absolutely beautiful – it’s one of my favorites of everything Mika has ever done – and the whole story in it is about finding peace with the past yet some of the elements in the video are actually very heavy and watching it all put together triggers something in me. It’s nothing I can put in exact words or nothing I want to analyze. Watching the Tiny Love video is just so much more than watching a regular music video, it makes my brains to start a process that goes through hundreds and hundreds of pieces of information somewhere deep inside my head. Tiny things I’ve seen or heard or read or experienced during the past 12 years.

Words and sentences said on television or on stage or after shows. Facial expressions or behavior in different situations. Emotions put in different songs during different time periods. Little things I didn’t understand at the time or understood but didn’t connect to anything or even connected but later forgot or something I never even paid attention to. I watch the video and my mind starts to work and tries to connect the dots and a lot of thoughts appear. Not facts or arguments, more like questions about this artist and his career.

I start to wonder how it was to grow up to be an artist, when all that was kind of planned for him. What kind of a role music has had in his life, has it saved him and nurtured him, at least given him a way to express himself. How does it feel to have so many expectations created by people around him, expectations created by himself. What kind of dreams young artists generally have and are those crushed by the music industry the way we imagine they are. How it feels to be watched and criticized every single moment and how it is to grow as a person in the middle of all that. All kind of thoughts and questions, things that are not said but only triggered by this very personal song and film.

When the Revelation show starts and I see first the images of Mika’s parents on the background (highlighting their importance and the role in his life) and then him alone under the spotlight all that comes to my mind and it’s easy to see this show is as personal as his new music is. There’s a lot of dancing and our emotions go from one extreme to another and night after night he gives all his energy and is almost like undressing himself on stage, showing himself totally bare. Revealing the audience so much in a very lonely way. The band is on the background most of the time and Mika doesn’t take much contact to the audience either, not in the way we are used to. He goes in the middle of the audience and makes the crowd sing and talks to it but it’s all very controlled and a part of the structure of the show.

It’s emotional to watch both how much he’s giving of himself on stage and how the audience is reacting. If people don’t seem to fully get him it’s frustrating – how come they don’t understand – and when they obviously get him it’s really touching. Either way it’s extremely emotional and I feel that in the audience even though I understand my mental support doesn’t have much meaning, there’s not that kind of connection. The show is a weird mix of dancing for our jealousy or in our platform ballerinas and dreaming of the backseat of the vintage Benz and watching Mika going high on his piano, singing to his sister who a few years ago was almost killed by a very serious accident and somehow there’s beauty in that too. Somehow he makes both sides of life look beautiful.

This album and these tours related to it are focused on Mika the way I have hoped for years. Eventually it’s different than I imagined in advance but everything always is. I admire it that when he says his music is personal he means it as much as that word can mean and when he says he’s making himself vulnerable on stage he really does that. Those are not just words, all that is really happening, and when he’s standing there on stage after the show exhausted and given all his energy and almost literally naked, I honestly can’t always understand how he survives. It’s emotional and quite heavy to see what artists actually go through when they are on stage.

There are still many dates left so if you haven’t seen the Revelation show yet and have a possibility to do it, go and see it. I highly recommend it, it’s so beautiful and would be a big loss to miss it.